Saturday, August 26, 2006
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ! yeash im so far behind even with tution ,just look at my chem tutor finnally crawled to the chapter on chemical kinetics ! gasp gasp gasp ! lols everybody was complaining todae ,u shld hav seen how long-faced and stressed up mr tony looked .diff colleges are doing diff stuff ,we hav ajc,rjc,nyjc,srjc,njc,acjc students in my class lols lovely he hasnt covered electro chem ,chemical equilibrium ,entropy ,organice chem yet .HOLY ! 5 more weeks left and everybody is pouring on him.haiz but who will take pity on us when we dont become j2s next yr rittes ? jo and jermaine have quit chem tution alr ....ahhhhhhhh,but ill see them arnd so its ok .just made new friends with another ny girl =))))) god provides .talking aby jermaine ,shes spending the night in a sleeping bag with her pw mates at changi airport again !whoa .i seriously wonder how tt is possible ,where do they lay to rest anywae?????i mean u cant just claim ur ground on any empty or vacant spots ritesss is anybody stressing out alr ? 35 more days aint exactly a long time .so much to do in so little time .i wonder how some ppl cope realli .just take my classmates for eg . so many of them are actively involved in their ccas, i see,cuiwen, clovis and michael.y running round the sch ,being bz with their ccas like even now during the pre -exam preparation period.does being bz make u more discliplined? cause i rem it helping me alort .i was juggling with loads of commitment in the past ,track at least 3 times a week,prefect meetings,debrief everydae.first aid monitress,planning progs for the sch ,cheographing at least 1 dance a yr for the board ,ballet ,tution galore .i sent out almost 25 sms-es a day .now i hardly send out 5 sometimes .no body calls to ask me to solve any problems now,if there are any ,its nothing too big .and i hav to admit ,all tt bz-ness killed alort of precious time tt i cld hav spent on building relationships .it turned me into a workaholic =)))) i was on high when i had so many problems to settle ,and i found them to be challenging ,actually it felt good when the jrs come to u with their problems ,it made me feel important,i had 15 jrs to take care of everyterm (: .haha.the low came when i found tt i wasnt doing much aft handover and stuff ,so i had to fill the gap by studying frm morning to night with my classmates =))).it was then tt i discovered tt it was what i was doing ,and how ppl were satisfied with me tt was the measure of my own self- worth .lols how sad huh ? wells i didnt think tt it was a bad thing at least ive learnt alort more about myself and have worked with diff ppl of diff working styles ,it was the experience tt mattered . ive lived the life tt i always wanted ,right now im happy with he life i hav now ,a preety laidback one actually =)))) but wells nort for long as much as i wld like it to be acually .come sept ill be devoting myself to track track and more TRACK,i just hope tt the climate in track wld change.....wells hmmm im waiting for change???ill just be litifying huh???wellss it looks like i need to do something abt it with the help of god of course=))) hopefully it wld be like in the past, a passion with a purpose for track over the last mths ive proveen myself tt my worth doesnt lie in how much work i do or what my enemies think of me =))) my identity is in christ !i dun hav to please men ,ill nv find eternal glory there .so long as try to keep my walk with god right ,he will provide ,if he puts me to it he will put me THROUGH IT =))) everybody say AHMEN ! lols...our god is great(:
rainbow;
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